Buying the Virgin

Chapter 57: The Girl Who Came Back - Chapter Thirteen

Steaming mug in hand, I pick up a large beach towel and, at the last moment, a cushion as well, and

walk out onto the beach. Sitting on my towel and my cushion, I cradle the mug, staring out to sea.

There is only the slightest of breezes, blowing wisps of hair around my face, and the only sound is the

rushing of the surf, a little way away.

The night is bright and moonlit, bright enough that I cast a shadow on the sands.

What did I do wrong?

I want to cry….

“May I join you?”

It is my Master. I do not speak, just shuffle up the towel to make room for him, wincing at the sting in

my buttocks.

“I’m sorry, Charlotte. I owe you an apology.”

“Master?”

“You didn’t do anything. None of us can help how we feel inside. It’s how we deal with those reactions

that counts. And I didn’t deal well with my own reactions today.”

I gulp down my milk, not knowing what to say.

“That smells good.”

“Would you like some of it, Master? Or I can make some more.”

“In a while, perhaps.”

Trivial words…. they don’t mean anything…

“If had been just you that was angry at me Master, it would have been bad enough, but when Michael

was mad at me too, I thought…”

“I love you, Charlotte. Perhaps too much.”

I gulp another mouthful.

“And Michael loves you also.”

“Yes, he does.” says a voice from behind me.

Another beach towel ruffles up next to me, settling on the sand. Michael sits beside me.

“I came to apologise too. Neither of us behaved well today. And my behaviour was worse. I knew that

how James reacted wasn’t right, but I let him do it anyway because I was jealous too.”

My Master continues, “Next time you meet Haswell, just do what any sane woman would do: be polite

and remember that he’s a married man.”

“Who, incidentally,” says Michael, “has a reputation for adoring his wife; worships the ground she walks

on apparently…”

I nod, unspeaking.

“It’s late,” says my Master. “Come back to bed?”

“In a while.” I stare out to sea, not looking at either of them. After a few minutes’ awkward silence, they

both return to the house.

What am I doing here?

What kind of woman sets up with two men? Tries to make a threesome work?

Perhaps I should go…. I could make an early start on next year’s college work….

Quietly, I go back to the house, pack my laptop and a few other essentials into a rucksack. My clothes

are mainly upstairs in the bedroom. I don’t want to go in there. I might wake them.

Putting on my stoutest shoes, walking boots I packed in case we went hiking in the mountains, I sling

the rucksack over my shoulder. Slipping the two rings from my finger, I leave them on the mantle and

slip out into the night.

It is a good distance to the City, at least thirty miles. I’ll not do it in one stretch. But I recall a twenty-

four-hour diner at about the halfway point. When I get there, I can stop to eat and sleep a bit. Once I

get to the rail station, I can get back to my university from there.

The road is not lit, but in the clear night, I can’t get lost. If push comes to shove, all I need to do is keep

the sea to my right and I’ll end up in the City. But there is no problem. Just as the dark of the horizon All content © N/.ôvel/Dr/ama.Org.

fades to a grey, pre-dawn light, I reach the diner I was aiming for. I am tired, but plenty of coffee and a

hearty breakfast revive me, or so I think…

I wake, with a stiff neck from sleeping leaning up against a wall. Rubbing it and cursing under my

breath, I sit up to see Michael and my Mast…. no, not my Master…. Michael and James sitting

opposite me, waiting for me to wake.

“Sleep well?” asks Michael acidly.

Rubbing my sore neck, “No, not really. What are you two doing here?”

“What are we doing here?” says James. “What are you doing here? You scared the hell out of us this

morning. Where d’you think you’re going?”

“Home, well, back to college anyway.”

“Like this? Walking?”

“Only to the station. They have trains there, you know.”

“For God’s sake, get in the car. We can talk back at the house.”

“No, we can’t. I’m done with talking.”

“Charlotte, I’m telling you. Get in the car, and we’ll talk about last night, back at the house, where we

have some privacy.” Already, I can see the woman serving at the bar, watching us warily. I see her

mutter something to a man stacking dishes into a washer.

“And I’m telling you, James, that you have surrendered the authority to tell me anything.”

He goes very quiet, staring at me.

Michael says, “Please, Charlotte. Come with us. We can sort this out.”

“No. I will not get in that car with you. You two think you run my life? You don’t. Now leave me alone.

Goodbye, the pair of you.”

“You’re walking? It’s got to be twenty miles yet.” Michael sounds disbelieving.

“You think I can’t walk twenty miles? Watch me. Besides, it’s daylight now. I can thumb a lift.”

Both men look appalled. “No, you mustn’t do that, Charlotte,” says Michael. “It’s way too dangerous,

especially for a girl like you.”

Dish-stacker man is standing beside us. “Are you okay, lady? These two bothering you?”

“Er no, I’m fine, thanks.”

He looks at me, clearly unconvinced, shrugs and goes.

“Dangerous?” I hiss. “Compared to what? Being strung up like a carcass by a man who has always

promised me that when I say so, it stops.… But it didn’t stop, did it? I knew I’d upset you, so I allowed

you to ‘discipline’ me. And your promise has always been that when I’ve had enough, it goes no

further….” I run out of words and settle for staring out of the window, trying to control my breathing.

Michael tries to slide his hand over mine on the table, but I pull my hand away. “You think I don’t know

about dangerous?” I continue. “You have no idea about me…”

“Please, Charlotte,” says Michael. “If you insist on leaving, then we won’t try to stop you, but at least let

us drive you to the station and see you safely off.”

*****

The drive to the rail station is a strained silence. As the car pulls up, James is staring at the floor.

Michael simply says, “Charlotte, please don’t go.”

I don’t reply. I don’t trust myself to speak. Swallowing hard against my tight throat, I step out of the car,

haul my pack from the boot, and without looking back, walk into the station.

*****

The work is crummy, and I stink. Each night I come back ‘home’, reeking of greasy food and stale beer.

But it’s work, and I earn enough to make the rent on my dismal little flat. If I can cover living expenses

by working, then the cash I have in the bank should see me through for a good while. Textbooks, field

trips, occasional extra tuition fees; the costs add up, but if I’m careful, I should manage.

But I am so tired. The long hours working in the cheap bar leave me exhausted, unable to think

straight, unable to concentrate on anything academic. The advance work I had intended to do before

the next semester falls away. I want to change my course, and it will be almost impossible to do if I

haven’t completed the catch-up work before the main academic year.

Struggling with a text I am trying to make sense of, I give it up as a bad job. Tired already, the poor

lighting is giving me a terrible headache.

And it is almost time for my next shift.