17. A Bleeding Mess
AURELIA
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For the umpteenth time, I tossed in my bed, ignoring the sun rays on my face. Somewhere in the corner of my mind, I knew I should be up and getting ready for the games but I remained in my bed, dreading the reality that would slam into me the second I stepped out of
bed. He was here, after all.
The man who did everything he could to kill me was here in the same pack with me.
The pain and hatred that the sight of him arose in me yesterday at the guesthouse kept me up all night even though Inara tried to talk me into relaxing and preparing my mind for the duel I would be participating in today.
"I can't believe you wasted your energy worrying about that prick, Relia. You could have had a good night's sleep and saved your energy for whoever you would be up against in today's challenge." Inara complained, stirring in the back of my mind.
"You think I want to be like this?" I asked my wolf, hiding my face in my pillow. "I loathe that man, Ina and he tried to kill Katie and Kyle. I can't let him get to them. I can't break before him yet I don't know how to keep my demons locked away while I'm around him."
Having a heart-to-heart conversation with Inara was a daily routine. I never hide anything from her which is why I was certain she knew my heart was hurting at the moment. Alpha Raiden traumatized me. He broke me and I thought I had healed with the arrival of my babies but seeing him again revealed that I was still a bleeding mess-
"Mama?" My little boy's morning voice echoed in my room as he slipped past the door, making his way to my bed.
I didn't have to open my eyes to know that he just woke up but my eyes still fluttered open as my heart swelled with love. "Hey, baby," I muttered with affection, holding out my arms for him to crawl in for a hug.
Kyle, who has always enjoyed my affection, smiled shyly as he settled in bed with me, in between my arms and chest. His dirty blond hair had been a constant reminder of a certain gray-eyed man. Kyle got all of his physical features, except his stormy blue eyes from him but my little boy was nothing like that heartless monster.
"Katie said you have an important game today, Mama." Kyle looked into my eyes, curiosity glinting in his. I nodded, kissing his cheek softly. "Can I join you? I love games! But why are you still in bed?"
Kyle's excitement for the games decreased the minute he realized I wouldn't be in bed if I was excited about the game.
"You don't like the game?" Kyle asked, his voice dropping.
"I love the game, baby, and I've been looking forward to kicking some ass- I mean, winning." I quickly corrected myself.Content protected by Nôv/el(D)rama.Org.
However, Kyle chuckled, his small fingers caressing my face, "It's okay to say the word, mama. You're an adult and even Katie says it when you aren't around to scold her."
"That sassy girl." I laughed with my son, having a rare moment with him before Katie showed up to take over like she always does.
"She's a good girl even though she acts otherwise, Mama. I love you both so much." Kyle defended his sister and also expressed his pure feelings.
This right here reminded me of the woman I had become. I was a strong mother of two amazing kids. I healed for my kids and they have been healing me with their little laughter and heartfelt bond. Alpha Raiden had nothing on that and I'd face him a million times to prove to him that I wasn't the same broken woman.
Inara scoffed in my head, "Like I haven't been telling you the same thing. Kyle has his ways though." I could hear the love in her voice as she mentioned Kyle.
Kyle was the gentle bookworm but he was just as adorable as Katie and loved by almost everyone while Katie had managed to earn a few enemies because of her dominant attitude. My twins were different but they complemented each other just fine.
"Mama loves you even more, Kyle. Katie is a pain in Mama's butt," I intentionally used a more suitable word for my baby's ears but he was smarter than that and his laughter told me he found my attempt amusing, "But I love her too. What do you say to waking her up with kisses?"
"She'd hate that." Kyle laughed harder, his eyes mirroring the mischief in mine.
I rolled off the bed, laughing, and with his small frame in my arms, "Then let's do it!"
My son freed himself from my arms and dashed towards the room he shared with his sister, screaming, "Here comes your torture, Katie..."
If Katie wasn't a deep sleeper, I'd have thought Kyle was warning her but he soon jumped on his sister's bed and showered her with kisses. I joined him until Katie's eyes flew open, completely horrified.
"Kyle! Mom!" Katie screeched. "Get off me!"
Pinning Katie to the bed was easy but bringing out the affectionate little girl in her was almost impossible. After promising to get both Kyle and me back, she eventually relaxed and started laughing heartily, enjoying the love.
My mind eased and my heart felt lighter after the sweet moment with my kids. We got ready for the games before Hazel showed up in our small apartment- a gift from Alpha Tristan. Hazel took the kids from me as soon as we arrived at the Game Arena. "Let's kick some ass, Relia!" Inara said to me as I approached the warriors' section of the Arena.
But there was only one ass I was dying to kick. Hard.
As if the universe was agreeing with me, my gaze shifted to the Alphas section and he was sitting in the front like the king of Alphas. Before our gaze could meet, I looked away, determined to not be a loser today.