Novel Update
Chapter 45
I couldn’t believe what was happening as I turned away from Kir, my mind racing with questions. Nothing made sense, not one thing. This thing that I felt was unmistakable but it still made no sense. Why could I…? Why would she…? What’s this. smell?!
“Someone get me the hell out of here!” I wanted to run and just get the hell out of her sight. To move in the opposite. direction of where she was standing and not turn back until I was sure she was at least a million miles away from where I was standing but for some reason my feet were rooted to the ground and I couldn’t peel my eyes off her and she wasn’t helping matters either standing there and looking so beautiful.
She was literally in shredded clothes and she still looked so f***g beautiful! All the anger that I felt towards the people that brought her to this s**id place for a second and I just wanted to stare at her all day without peeling my eyes off for a second. I also wanted to know what was going through her mind while she stared at me. I wanted to know what she was thinking.
Was she as repulsed as I was just thinking about this whole thing? Did it alarm all of her senses did the same way it did to mine? I bet it did. After all I had put her through in this pack, there was no way that she would be pleased with this new discovery. Was she thinking of running away the same way I wast
Was she considering killing me? Did she want to revoke this whole thing the way that I wanted to?
How could the moon goddess be so cruel and play this game with me? I had always believed I would never find my fated mate and had accepted that fact. Women didn’t even bother me anymore, I just had sex and got over with them. It was one of the traits about myself that I liked the most, that I had no one to make me weak and vulnerable. My brother was the only other person in the world that I loved and he could protect himself, this one can’t even save herself!
Just looking at her, I knew I was going to make a lot of stupid decisions going forward, just like the one that led me here in the first place. I could have gotten hurt or even worse, I could have died. I risked not just my life but the life of my guard to save her and I didn’t even know she was my mate then, imagine the kind of decisions I would make now that I knew that she was my mate.
Just looking at how she looked made me want to protect her. I was going to break a lot of jaws for her sake. The men that did this to her were going to pay. I didn’t want somebody to protect I did not need this kind of thing at this point in my life. What kind of sick taunt was this from the goddess!!
This entire thing was too unnecessary. I did not need a woman did not need someone to love.
After all, I could easily choose someone else to be my mate if I wanted, I had a wide variety of options. But now, discovering that Kira, the ex-mate of a man from the pack responsible for my parents’ death, was my fated mate left me in shock. It felt like I was losing my sanity, and all I wanted to do was escape this nightmare. It was all too much to handle. Bringing her into my pack was the first mistake that I made. I knew that there was the slightest bit of attraction at the time and I still did what I didText © by N0ve/lDrama.Org.
Why was the fact that that she was associated with the killer of my parents not enough reason for this mate bond not work? Why was it not enough rid my self of this stupid feeling that was pulsing through my veins. I needed to regain my sanity, this wasn’t right. This wasn’t right at all. I needed to fix whatever the f****k was wrong with my head.
I hoped that I was wrong. I prayed that I was wrong because if I wasn’t, it was going to be too much for me to handle.
Just as I was about to run away, I remembered Kira and turned back to her. I was too lost in my own thoughts of her that I had forgotten that she was standing in front of me, cold and embarrassed.
I wriggled myself out of my shirt, leaving me in my undershirt, and handed it to her. She hesitated, staring at the shirt like it was a ticking time bomb that I was handing to her but took it after I gave her a serious look. I didn’t have the time or the energy to convince her that she was okay now that she was with me nor did I want to. I had too much to do to be dealing with someone else’s emotional huggage.
-I watched her struggle to put on the shirt without letting go of the tiny pieces of clothing that were shielding her from nakedness when she could have just turned around if she didn’t want me to get a look at what I’d already seen before but still couldn’t peel my eyes off.
She finally managed to throw herself inside my shirt and part of me never wanted her to take it off because of how good she looked in it and the other part of me wanted to rip it off her.
I told her to get into my car, and once she did, I ordered my guani to bring everyone he had beaten up back to the palace. Our choice of vehicle was not exactly well thought out.
We didn’t know that we would be shipping criminals from the wilderness back to the palace. The guard piled them up in the trunk, shoving them in like a pile of dirty clothes and I couldn’t care less. He say at the back seat of the car with the maids and I could see them shaking from the rear view mirror. I was tempted to ask the guard to throw them out but I needed to get to the bottom of what really happened even though they disgusted me.
During the car ride home, Kira’s scent was everywhere, and I struggled to keep my thoughts under control. I couldn’t stop thinking about what I was going to do now that I knew she was my mate. When we arrived at the pack, Brax was waiting outside with many guards and maids. Watching him hug Kira as soon as she got out of the car left a bad taste in my mouth. I looked away and reminded myself that I didn’t care about what my brother did or about Kira but there was no bigger lic.
In the throne room, the captured people were kneeling on the floor. I started questioning them, trying to find out who had sent them to hurt Kira but all the maids had to offer me in terms of information were their pathetic tears and it was honestly getting really frustrating.
“Whose maids are you?!” I asked again and they knew better than to hold back because I was running thin on my patience and they knew it
One of them finally spoke up and I was shocked to hear that they were Mara’s maids.
“I think we both know that this whole process you’re going through is a waste of time, we both know who did this.” Brax interrupted, saying it was obvious who did it, but I ignored him even though I knew who he was talking about.
Despite our history, I knew Mara better and didn’t believe she would do something this crazy. She was mean and she said. things she couldn’t account for but she was no monster. As I continued to interrogate them, the doors to the throne room opened, and Mara strode in confidently.
Everything felt overwhelming. Finding out about my fated mate, discovering traitors in the palace, and now Mara’s sudden appearance – I couldn’t make sense of it all. I took a deep breath and told myself I needed to stay calm and strong. As the Alpha, I had to protect my pack and showing weakness in front of them was not the way to go at all. But I couldn’t ignore the fact that my life would never be the same again.
My eyes found Kira once more, and I felt guilty for thinking badly of her. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t ignore the connection we shared – something greater than anything I had experienced before. I realized it was time to confront my feelings and figure out what the hell to do with it.