Chapter 60 – meeting monica
Ethan’s POV
TWO DAYS LATER
I waited patiently for Monica as I sat in the restaurant close to the window. I looked at the watch on my wrist again and realized that she was thirty minutes late.Content property of NôvelDra/ma.Org.
I wanted to apologize to her. The way I treated Monica was so heartless and just thinking about the past, I feel so ashamed as a man. I remember back then were still together how I starved her sexually.
She would sometimes stark naked in front of me and would make advances at me and I would yell at her and tell her how ugly and unattractive she was.
I always yelled at her and treated her like trash and every day of my life, I regret it.
Mia has been nothing but a pain in the ass and I regret ever leaving and cheating on Monica for her.
Now Monica was with Nicholas and I wondered if I would ever get a chance to be with her again.
I wanted to show her that I’m a changed man. I wanted to prove to her that I was now better. I still love her and I desperately want to have her back.
“what’s all this about?” I heard a voice and that jolted me out of my thoughts. Looking forward, I saw Monica sitting radiantly in front of me.
“Hi” I greeted but she didn’t respond.
“Is this why you wanted to see me? To say hi?” And asked She began picking up her phone from off the table and placing it inside her bag ” Since you have nothing to say, then I think I’ll leave”
she said standing to her feet as she proceeded to leave the seat but I quickly held her hand, bringing her to a halt
“Please don’t leave yet. Let’s talk” I said and she rolled her eyes as she sat back down and crossed her hands under her breast, making me see a glimpse of them as they pumped a little out of the v-neck sundress she wore.
“Start talking” she uttered rudely and I removed my gaze from her chest to her face.
“I just wanted to apologize for everything. I know I messed up Monica. I was an idiot and an asshole. I cheated on you and never respected you. I never listened to anything you had to say and I always shuned you. Every time I think of what I did to you, I feel guilty and I’m here to say I’m sorry”
“Saying sorry won’t change things or correct the mistakes but I accept your apology,” she said sternly.
“Thank you”, I said. “Can I ask a question?”
“Sure,” she said, her expression serious.
“Do you love Nicholas?” I asked and I could see deep lines forming on her head indicating she didn’t like that question I just asked.
“Of course I do. I love him with everything I have” she replied with a deep frown on her face as she stared at me.
“I’m sorry if I asked you that question but I know you once had feelings for me and I was just trying to know if you still have them,” I said shamelessly but calmly
“What are you trying to say, Ethan?” Her sharp voice made me swallow a lump as I gathered the courage to say what I had in mind.
“I was hoping we could get back together. I still love and care about you Monica. We used to love each other so much and we can still rekindle that feeling we once had for each other” I said, pouring out what I had in mind.
“Are you crazy? Do you need to see a doctor?” She asked, her eyes filled with rage “How dare you say that to me. I’m married for goodness sake” she said.
“I know Monica but you can leave Nicholas and come back to me. We could do so much more together. I love you and I want you back. I don’t care if you already have kids with him but I want you back in my life Monica” I poured out my feelings for Monica.
Yes, I messed up and I realized now that she was everything I ever wanted. I can’t let Nicholas have her. I want Monica back in my life. I wouldn’t mind taking care of her kids but I just want her back.
“You must be out of your mind,” she said, staring at me and laughing mockingly but I knew what I wanted and it was her I wanted.
“Please, Monica. I still have feelings for you. We can make this work if we try. I know you may have lost your feelings for me and you now probably have feelings for Nicholas but I know that if you give me the chance, then I could help rekindle those feelings” I said.
She scoffed as she stared at me, a mocking smile dancing on her lips “Then what will happen to Nicholas after I fall in love with you?” She asked calmly.
“You divorce him and then we can be together with the_,” I said but she cut me short.
“You are insane Ethan. You need to go see a doctor or better still, go see Jason your best friend. He will have the right medication for you”
“Please Monica I’m serious about this. I want you back” I said again, stating my intentions and making them known to her
“You treated me like garbage and you never respected me. You called me names and even went as far as bringing your ex-girlfriend into our lives. Ethan dear, I would never get back with you. You’re my past and you will forever remain my past. I don’t want to ever see you again. Stay away from me, start away from Nicholas, and stay away from my kids” she said sternly, pointing her index finger at me as she uttered every word. Rising to her feet, she took her bag and her phone in one hand “Don’t ever in your entire existence try to call me again”
“Monica” I called out and she paused in her tracks “If I can’t have you back then I’ll make sure no one will ever have you happily”, I said with determination in my eyes as I swore to make sure that Nicholas never lived happily with Monica. Monica was mine first and she is mine forever.