Chapter EIGHTY- ONE: A GIFT
With the eyes on me. It was clear that everyone wanted to hear what I had to say. I wanted to tell them not to, the message was just for Ryan, as long as he heard me that was fine. That was all I needed.
“Guess what?,” I didn’t wait for any reply, “The blood moon is a few days away and I’m not coming back to you. I never will. Do you know what that means? It means that you have failed. Yes, you heard me right. You and whatever plans that you had up your sleeves have failed. And on that day of the blood moon, I’m going to seat outside right here in this Kingdom and sip from a glass of wine looking up to the moon as I mock your loss. That’s what I’m going to do. Better have that in mind.”
I felt so good to get that off my chest and even better when I saw the defeat on his face. But for some reason, it didn’t last long.
He busted into a roar of laughter as I watched him. I turned to Kieran and he had the same look that I had on his face as well. It was clear that Ryan now was out of his mind.
“You don’t know what you are talking about, Clara. I guess the poison really did take some part of your sanity away. You are so hilarious. I miss that about you. And do you know what else I miss about you?”
“Ryan, you have no right to…” I couldn’t finish my statement before he interrupted.
“Those supple lips of yours, so succulent that I sucked them that night and your body…”
“Ryan stop,” I said.
But he ignored and continued.
“… so warm pressed against mine. The sweetest are your moans and the look on your face when I slid into you. Don’t you miss that?”
“Kieran aren’t you going to stop him from spilling trash?”
I turned to Kieran but he already paid so much attention to Ryan. I saw the curiosity in his eyes, he also wanted to know. It was too late now. With every words that fell off his mouth, my dress tightened against my neck. The room felt hotter than it previously was as sweat popped on my skin.
“… those soft caress, and the look in your eyes that you wanted me. You know it was fun, being intimate with a woman carrying another man’s child. The sex feels different. Too bad the child couldn’t meet me.”
“Fuck you Ryan! ” I screamed as if my voice pulled them all from a trans, the guards pulled him away but I still heard his laughter. I couldn’t look at Kieran, I just turned sharply and walked away. It was clear now. I still wasn’t ready to face Ryan. An hour passed by but I knew that I would need more than just an hour to get over what had just happened. Ryan just didn’t know when to stop. The one memory that I thought I had finally buried began to float again. Even when I tried to close my eyes, I could still see it. Still feel the thumps and mild kicks. I touched my belly, my eyes already felt hotter than it previously was.
Why did Ryan have to say that?
Just when I thought that it was all over and I would finally have peace, I had just realised that I had thought wrong.
“Clara, are you there?”
I heard Kieran’s voice from outside. I still wasn’t ready to face him. Even if he tried to hide it, I knew that he believed all that Ryan had said. He might begin to see a lot differently now and I didn’t want that. I just wanted to be locked for as long as I can and rest from having a long week. But that was clearly not going to happen. I strolled towards the door hoping that he would just give up and finally leave. But when I opened the door, he just stood there.
“Hi, good morning. Were you asleep? I’m sorry if I did wake you up.”
“No, it’s fine. I have been awake for a while now,” I said.
“Okay, thank goodness.”
“What’s wrong? It’s time for breakfast?”
“Well, aside that I have something to show you.”
“What’s that?”
He showed me his hands and I took them unsure of where we were going as he led me through the hallway.
“It’s supposed to be a surprise.”
“A surprise?”
“Yes, don’t be scared it is nothing to worry about.”
He didn’t say much to me and I tried not to look directly at him. The way I felt reminded me of the very first day that I had come to the palace. That blackness and uncertainty to what I was going to see. My curiosity had grown to a height the moment that he had said that it was a surprise.
“Where are we going to?” I asked as we walked past the exit door.
“Just outside. It isn’t far anymore.”
As soon as we got outside, I looked around but there was no one there, only a car. And we stopped right in front of the car. Kieran finally left my hand and took out a key from his pocket handing it to me.
“What’s that?” I reluctantly took it from his grip.
“It’s yours,” he said.
“What? The car?”
“Yes.”
“Wait, you bought me a car?”
“Yes, I did. This is the GLE Benz. One of the newest model. I will assign a driver for you if you don’t know how to drive yourself.”
“Kieran, I don’t understand. Why will you buy me a car?”
“You don’t like it?”
“Of course I do. It’s just that I didn’t expect that you will do this. What’s the occasion?”
“Come on, there is no occasion. I felt that you needed one so I got one for you. You are not a slave here in the Palace. So this is just to tell you that you can go wherever you wish to. But from the look on your face, it seems like you are not very pleased.”
“I am. Believe me I am. I’m just a bit surprised that’s all. It has just been pack of surprises since I returned from the hospital. First Ryan and now this. I should really do well with a nap right now.”
“Oh Ryan. That wasn’t supposed to happen. Come,” he reached for my hand, “I’ll take you inside.”
I grabbed his hand without thinking much about it and followed him back in. I could tell that he was staring at me as we walked towards my room but I just couldn’t face him or ask him anything.
“Thanks,” I said as soon as we got to the room. He still stood by the door while I walked in. I stared at the key again and then at him with a smile creeping across my lips.
“Thank you for this Kieran. I really love it. Can’t wait to start driving around,” I chuckled.
“Yeah,” he stood there with his hands tucked in his pocket.
“Kieran, what’s wrong?” I finally asked, he had the look all evening.
“What?”
“You can ask me whatever it is you want to ask.”
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“Come on Kieran, I know that look.”
“What look?”
“Just spill it out already.”
“I don’t know what you want me to spill out.”
I just stared at him.
“Alright fine. I just want you to know that you are not alone. If there is anything that you want to talk about any day any time, I’m here. Ever ready to listen.”
“Oh… is that it?”
“Yes, that’s it.”
“Okay, that’s sweet Kieran. Thanks for always being there for me.”
He nodded.
“You should take that nap now.”
I exhaled. I watched Kieran as he walked out shutting the door behind him. I walked towards the door and peeped through. I wish I could tell him all about it. Explaining everything in details from every contraction to the feeling that grew around me. But he wouldn’t understand even a fragment of it, I thought so. I just smiled back. Just then, a guard came rushing towards him.
“Sir…” he stopped in front of Kieran.
“What is it?”
“There is something you need to see,” he said.