Fifty Shades of Grey (book 1+ 2)

Chapter 117

Yes, I'm rich. Get used to it. Why shouldn't I spend money on youWe've told your father I'm your

boyfriend, for heaven's sake. Isn't that what boyfriends doAs your Dom, I would expect you to accept

whatever I spend on you with no argument. Incidentally, tell your mother too.

I don't know how to answer your comment about feeling like a whore. I know that's not what you've

written, but it's what you imply. I don't know what I can say or do to eradicate these feelings. I'd like you

to have the best of everything. I work exceptionally hard, so I can spend my money as I see fit. I could

buy you your heart's desire, Anastasia, and I want to. Call it redistribution of wealth if you will. Or simply

know that I would not, could not ever think of you in the way you described, and I'm angry that's how

you perceive yourself. For such a bright, witty, beautiful young woman you have some real self-esteem

issues, and I have a half a mind to make an appointment for you with Dr. Flynn.

I apologize for frightening you. I find the thought of instilling fear in you abhorrent. Do you really think I'd

let you travel in the holdI offered you my private jet for heaven's sake. Yes it was a joke, a poor one

obviously. However, the fact is - the thought of you bound and gagged turns me on (this is not a joke -

it's true). I can lose the crate - crates do nothing for me. I know you have issues with gagging, we've

talked about that and if/

when I do gag you, we'll discuss it. What I think you fail to realize is that in Dom/sub relationships it is

the sub that has all the power. That's you. I'll repeat this - you are the one with all the power. Not I. In

the boathouse you said no. I can't touch you if you say no - that's why we have an agreement - what

you will and won't do. If we try things and you don't like them, we can revise the agreement. It's up to

you - not me. And if you don't want to be bound and gagged in a crate, then it won't happen.

I want to share my lifestyle with you. I have never wanted anything so much. Frankly I'm in awe of you,

that one so innocent would be willing to try. That says more to me than you could ever know. You fail to

see I am caught in your spell, too, even though I have told you this countless times. I don't want to lose

you. I am nervous that you've flown three thousand miles to get away from me for a few days, because

you can't think clearly around me. It's the same for me Anastasia. My reason vanishes when we're

together -

that's the depth of my feeling for you.

I understand your trepidation. I did try to stay away from you; I knew you were inexperienced, though I

would never have pursued you if I had known exactly how innocent you were - and yet you still manage

to disarm me completely in a way that nobody has before. Your email for example: I have read and re-

read it countless times trying to understand your point of view. Three months is an arbitrary amount of

time. We could make it six months, a yearHow long do you want it to beWhat would make you

comfortable?

Tell me.

I understand that this is a huge leap of faith for you. I have to earn your trust, but by the same token,

you have to communicate with me when I am failing to do this. You seem so strong and self-contained,

and then I read what you've written here, and I see another side to you. We have to guide each other

Anastasia, and I can only take my cues from you. You have to be honest with me, and we have to both

find a way to make this arrangement work.

You worry about not being submissive. Well maybe that's true. Having said that, the only

time you do assume the correct demeanor for a sub is in the playroom. It seems that's the one place

where you let me exercise proper control over you, and the only place you do as you're told. Exemplary

is the term that comes to mind. And I'd never beat you black and blue. I aim for pink. Outside the

playroom, I like that you challenge me. It's a very novel and refreshing experience, and I wouldn't want

to change that. So yes, tell me what you want in terms of more. I will endeavor to keep an open mind,

and I shall try and give you the space you need and stay away from you while you are in Georgia. I

look forward to your next email.

In the meantime, enjoy yourself. But not too much.

Christian Grey

CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

Holy crap. He's written an essay like we're back at school - and most of it good. My heart is in my

mouth as I re-read his epistle, and I huddle on the spare bed practically hugging my Mac. Make our

agreement a yearI have the power! Jeez, I'm going to have to think about that. Take him literally, that's

what my mother says. He doesn't want to lose me.

He's said that twice! He wants to make this work too. Oh Christian, so do I! He's going to try and stay

away! Does this mean he might fail to stay awaySuddenly, I hope so. I want to see him. We've been

apart less than twenty-four hours, and knowing that I can't see him for four days, I realize how much I

miss him. How much I love him. NôvelDrama.Org: owner of this content.

"Ana, honey." The voice is soft and warm, full of love and sweet memories of times gone by. A gentle

hand brushes my face. My mom wakes me, and I'm wrapped around my laptop, hugging it to me.

"Ana, sweetheart," she continues in her soft singsong voice while I surface from sleep, blinking in the

pale pink light of dusk.

"Hi, Mom." I stretch out and smile.

"We're going out for dinner in thirty minutes. You still want to come?" she asks kindly.

"Oh, yes, Mom, of course." I try very hard, but fail to stifle my yawn.

"Now that's an impressive piece of technology." She points to my laptop.

Oh crap.

"Oh... this?" I strive for casual, surprised nonchalance.

Will Mom noticeShe seems to have grown more astute since I acquired a 'boyfriend'.

"Christian lent it to me. I think I could pilot the space shuttle with it, but I just use it for emails and

Internet access."

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