Chapter 1775 Jessica's Passing (Part Two)
"Daisy: I bet you must be surprised to receive my letter! We were so hostile towards each other. It is only natural that you are confused why I would write to you like this." Her handwriting was determined. Every stroke seemed to shout out loud to her from the paper. DaisyBelonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.
could tell when Jessica wrote these sentences she did so with a sense of finality.
"First of all, I am sincerely sorry for what I did to you years ago. My actions were inconsiderate and radical, and they caused you tremendous harm. For this, I am terribly sorry and wish I could apologize to you in person, but I don't expect you to forgive me for my behavior. However, please bear in mind that I am truly sorry and regret the harm I caused you." Jessica's words hurt her eyes, and Daisy's hands trembled uncontrollably as she read the sentences. She took a deep breath and continued reading.
"Perhaps, you viewed me as a family-wrecker all these years. You no doubt thought I came into your life to try and ruin your marriage. However, you are wrong. In terms of love, you are the one who stepped into my relationship with Edward. You came after me. When I started dating him, he didn't even have a place for you in his heart. I am sure you are aware of this obvious fact. You should know this better than anyone else. However, these things have become less important as time passed. I shouldn't talk about such things anymore. Let bygones be bygones!" The ink seemed paler from this sentence onwards. Daisy raised her eyebrow as she carefully studied Jessica's handwriting, it was no longer so assured, and the lines were in places so faint as to be almost unreadable. It seemed that she stopped for quite a long time before carrying on to finish the whole letter. Perhaps her illness accounted for the difference in script.
"I need to tell you that my love towards Mu is as deep as yours if not more so. Your love is profound whilst mine is crazy. The only difference is you have a piece of paper to prove your love, the marriage certificate. That is the only thing I lacked. However, I think we are of equal soul, as we both started from the same humble beginning, in the face of love itself. When we speak of our feelings for him, neither of us is superior."
Daisy's eyes moistened and she swallowed heavily as emotions flooded her. She raised her eyes from the letter and stared off at the horizon. Jessica's words held truth. Her lips twisted bitterly as she considered her own feelings towards Edward. Little did Jessica know that Daisy's love was also difficult and crazy. She came into his life early and sudden. They had such a long journey to reach this point. However, Jessica would never have understood this.
"Mu is the first man I fell in love with, he is also the only man that I shall ever love. My letter to you today is not trying to rub the past in your face. I just want to tell you that the man you have by your side is desired by so many women. They all longed for his attention but he never responded. I think you would somewhat understand how we feel. Like a moth flying towards the flame, I tried to hold him. Instead, I burned myself."
The metaphor hit Daisy hard. Of course she could understand how desperate Jessica had been. She felt for her, because she was once just like her, vulnerable and determined, trying desperately to win Edward's heart.
"Therefore, you should really love him with all your heart and soul. Because you need to love him on behalf of us, who also love him from afar. To be honest with you, none of us is any less than you. You are just lucky to have won his heart and tied the knot with him. I am sure as you read these words, you have a scornful look on your face! You might think we, a bunch of women who never triumphed in Edward's heart, are over-estimating ourselves by saying we are just as good as you. But Daisy, you are wrong. Think about the women surrounding Edward, none of them are plain, obscure or humble."
Daisy released a soft sigh as she read these words. Truly, her Edward was a charming man, surrounded by many outstanding women. She knew this already. It was not necessary for Jessica to point this out. She could already tell how popular he was when she first started dating him. The journey to his heart had not been at all smooth. She cared for him and was obsessed with all her rivals. She witnessed how those women tried to capture his heart but failed. She was the one who eventually won the love game. "To be honest, I find it bizarre to say goodbye to you with this letter. What a way to go! The truth is I don't have anyone close to me. I don't have any real friends. How pathetic this is! You and I, on the other hand, share a connection through Edward. Maybe it is because of the long-standing quarrel we had over the years, but I gradually began viewing you as a kind of friend. Therefore, I decided to write you this letter." The letter ended. There was a huge blank space below the last sentence. Daisy turned the paper over and found it empty too. Shouldn't Jessica have continued writing something more? 'It doesn't feel like an ending,' Daisy thought to herself as she carefully examined the paper. However, despite her examination of the document, she found no signature or date on it.
Setting down the letter, millions of questions rose to the fore, like so many tiny bubbles in her mind. She felt suddenly very tired as she gazed around the woods with a sinking heart. Her feelings were a mystery to her then, and lost in thought she lacked the strength to return to her office. Jessica's death touched her heart, despite Daisy remembering her as an evil, ill-willed and contemptible woman. For such a long time, they were fighting over the same man. Now that Jessica was dead, Daisy didn't know how to move on. Something was lost forever in her heart. Had Jessica even been her enemy? Daisy shook her head slowly. Some questions might never be answered now.
Jessica and her timely letter saved Edward. Strangely, Jessica's words reminded Daisy of a simple, yet overlooked, fact. Edward was popular with many women, and they all continually tried to capture his attention. With the letter in her hand, Daisy realized that she had been wrong about her marriage, for years she had been taking his love and care for granted. Sitting on the bench, she didn't even notice the gathering dark. All she could think about was the relationship between her and Edward. A good marriage needed careful management. It was high time that she devoted more time towards her husband. He was such an outstanding man, and if she didn't handle the situation carefully, he might be stolen by others some day.
When she returned home, she had already locked her bad mood away. However, resentment at his actions earlier still lingered. Forgiving his behavior would take time though. So, the moment she saw Edward at home, she swiftly moved past him.
"Senior Colonel, come here please. We need to talk." Edward had been in a foul mood the whole day. He was really upset that she had hung up the phone on him. This was awfully rude to him. To make matters worse, Daisy had blocked him on her phone, and he was genuinely worried about her, but could not reach her.
"Not now. I am really exhausted. We can talk tomorrow." Daisy stared ahead unseeing, as if Edward was made of glass. Her mind was still occupied with Jessica's letter. Given her current emotional mood, she knew she couldn't handle a serious discussion now. "You know this is not a fair way to deal with things. As a professionally trained solider, you should know better." Edward's face was dark. Her distant behavior really angered him.
"I am no longer on duty, this is my leisure time. So, stop pulling the solider trick on me!" Daisy quickly snapped back. She had her own stupid pride, and would never back down first in a fight.
"Well, if this is how you roll, we definitely need to talk about the issue at hand. Your attitude is unacceptable!" With these words, he pulled her in close and immediately dragged her to the bedroom by the wrist.
"Let me go! What are you doing? I still need to do some work!" She shouted at him, trying to free her wrist. However, her effort was in vain. His grip was so tight that she almost hurt herself. Daisy rolled her eyes as she was unwillingly led to the bedroom.
"You said you are tired. There you go! Rest in bed. Why would you even bother with your stupid work when you are tired?" He was serious as hell, his dark eyes fixed with an angry scowl. Daisy pouted as she noticed the anger in his eyes. Edward was somewhat amused by her reaction. She was the one shouting that she was off-duty and now she wanted to do some work? He didn't know how to argue with her when she became illogical. She said she was no longer a soldier during her leisure time, so maybe she shouldn't have mentioned her work at all.