Lie To Me

Chapter 33: 33

"I know you won't believe it. But I really love you. I love you so much."

"You love me but you managed to kiss that woman? Were you happy when you saw me crying

because I caught you?" I said sarcastically.

"No, Jia. I wasn't happy to see you crying and hurting. But Jasmin, she approached me when she

found out about us. She wanted me back." He said.

Fuck you, motherfuckers!

"I told you why we broke up, didn't I? She cheated on me and then dropped me like of a garbage. I was

hurt. I loved her, but how can she do that to me? Is there something wrong with me? Have I not done

enough for her?" He said.

"You know the feeling but you still did it to me." I said, getting more hurt hearing his confession.

It happened to him, he knew how painful it was but still, he done it to me too.

What a fucking bastard.

"I was really wrong; I know that so well. I fucked up. But when she came over and said she would come

back to me if I left you, all the pain came back. My love for you was covered of pain and resentment

that I became blind." He said.

"I want revenge, I want to make her feel what she made me feel. So, I thought, I’ll make her fall. And

when she’s too in love, that when I'll leave. I'll drop her like what he did to me.” She added.

Fucking asshole…

"I did. She fell in love with me again and became desperate for us to separate. She followed us here,

forcing me to end it with you and have our relationship again. I thought I was winning, I thought I could

get revenge. I am. But I was wrong. I was very wrong because in the end I am the loser again, I lost

you. You disgust me. "

"I loathed you." I said.

He nodded and smiled a bit. A pained one.

"And it hurts that you can't even stand with me in one room. It pained me so much, it was very painful

the first day we met after a year. You ran away even though it was only voice you heard." He said. "I

waited for your comeback. I thought when you come back, everything will be fine. I can talk to you. I

tried every way to reach you, I tried to talk to you few times, but you always walk away. You run away

from me when I approach you." He added.

"My first plan is to make up with you. I was so willing to wait until you give me a chance again, but

seeing you hurting because I showed up, I realized that it's impossible anymore. I have expected that.

You have given me a lot of chances and maybe the fifth one was really the last chance you could give

me. I've had too much so I can't sneeze one more time." He continued.

"I'm just stupid that I wasted all the opportunities you gave me. I wasted the person who loved me more

than herself, I wasted you."

He kneeled in front of me.

"Jia, I love you so much and I want you to heal. I want you to be healed from all the pain I've caused to

you. I want you to be happy, even if that means I won't be able to reach you again. I'm really sorry." He

said.

"You lied to me, Russel. Over and over and for the same reason. You made me feel irrelevant,

undeserving and worthless. But even so, I still repeatedly forgave you and loved you more. Maybe

when you feel I love you more, you can realize you're wrong. You can think that you love me back too. I

waited. I waited for you to realize that, but it never happened. In the end, I was the only one who

realized that it was impossible for me to dream. "

He shook his head.

"I loved you so much. Everything I said, did and made you feel. It's all true. I was just blinded by

revenge but I love you so much. I'm sorry if I failed to make you happy while you were with me. "I'm

sorry I failed you. I accept that I won't really be given another chance. And I deserved it. I'm a fool. I just

hurt you." Ani n'ya. Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

He cupped my face and wiped my tears. He kissed me on my forehead like he used to do before.

"Be happy, Jia. Don't be afraid because I won't bother you anymore." He said with a painful smile.

It pains me more.