Chapter 74
As I watch Landon's mother leave the room, so I can shower. They offered to help, but I want to be able to do it on my own. I stumble to the bathroom as my arms reach out to either side of the walls as I catch myself from falling. I do not feel pain, just weakness like I've been laying forever. I need to gain my strength. Training is going to start. I will need to be prepared. I already talked Landon into this. It must be ready when it starts, so I will have to pull myself together.
As I walk into the bathroom I turn the water on. As I watch the hot water build steam into the bathroom, I take a deep breath as the steam fills my lungs. I begin to cough. Surprised that I'm weaker than what I thought, knowing I may need some time to recover properly. I then take my hand and touch the water. I jumped back, not knowing how hot the water was. It felt like it burned my skin. I look at my hand, it's all red. I then turn some cold water on to cool it down just a tad. Nervous to test it again, I slowly put my hand in to feel the water relieved, as I feel that it is at a perfect temperature. I then get into the shower and just let the water pour over my nakedness.
The water feels so good, I can feel my muscles automatically relaxing. I begin to wash my hair and my body, then I just stand under the water and let it rinse the dirt off my skin. I can't help myself, as my hands travel down in-between my breasts to my navel. I can feel my pussy pulsating. I can't help but travel to my pussy. As I put my fingers in between my pussy lips, I began to rub. I can feel my pussy becoming wet and wetter. I can't help but moan out in pleasure. As I move my fingers faster and faster. Wanting that release more than anything. I don't stop until my entire body stiffens and I scream out in pleasure. Fuck yes, as I am trying to catch my breath. Loving how much relief I feel.
Feeling so much better, I'm ready to get out of the shower as I the shower as I finish up. I shut the water off, reach for my towel for my towel and begin to dry myself. I feel relieved all over, and then I begin to think That I finally got through to Landon. But am I able to trust him? To be honest, I'm not so sure.
I can at least say that I warned him it may be hard for him to accept, but Landon will have to come to accept what is to come up. I just have to grow to trust him that he will be by my side. I hate that I needed help to convince him from his mother, but he still accepted. I know that he is scared. I would be lying if I said I wasn't too. But I will not dare show any kind of weakness.
All that has happened, I'm still trying to just get through it. I think maybe finding out what really happened to my parents and making those that were involved pay and suffer will help me find closure. It makes me sick that losing my family was part of a plan to gain control. I'd rather have thought it was an accident to realize it was a part of the plan.
I don't want to be a part of their plan, I want us to make our own plan of life, not having to follow others. But following ourselves and actually making the world a better place for all, powerful or not. To protect ou kind, to keep them from extinction.
Knowing that their plan did not go the way they wanted, thanks to me. I want all wolves to have respect, no matter their title. We are all family. We should care about one another instead of fighting. Power can be the result of so much evil that it's terrifying. Hoping in the end that we will prevail and save everyone.
I try so hard to be strong sometimes I do feel strong but other times I just feel like I'm falling apart. I do not allow people to see that side that is crying for help. I feel that I have to be strong, no matter what, that can't disappoint anyone. That if any kind of weakness shows that they will take advantage.
I need to just stop and just get on with it as I snap out of my thoughts, I need to do all of this for the safety of everyone. But in a way, it's for my own selfishness, the revenge of my family's. I guess you can say it just puts the cherry on top of a cake or Sunday, whatever you want to call it. I want them to pay for what they did. Not only to me, but the life that my family was meant to have.
As I'm standing naked, I then notice that Landon is in the room, God. How much I would love to feel his hands on my body. His touch does something to me that no one else's touch has ever done. It makes me feel happy, no matter all the pain I have been through. He just stares and says nothing as I approach him. I want to wrap my arms around him, but I don't. I need to resist. I look into his beautiful golden brown eyes.
"Can you get me a towel, please."
"Lilly, you are so beautiful."
I watch as he turns around and walks to the closet and reaches for a towel. As he watches me walking towards him, I can tell that he wants me as much as I want him. To be honest, I want him more than anything, But I know I can't have him. He has suffered as much pain as I have. I believe that healers endure the most, for what reason I do not know.This belongs to NôvelDrama.Org - ©.
He hands me the towel, I take it and wrap it around my body. I want to ravish him more than anything. Just to feel his touch all over me, but knowing I'm only going to be disappointed in the end. So, I don't act on how I feel. I look over to the bed and see a nicely folded pile of clothes sitting on my bed.
I look over to Landon. "Can you please excuse me, so I can get dressed?"
"Of course I'll be waiting outside for you. We need to start preparing for what is coming."☐☐