CHAPTER 43: FAREWELL, MY FEELINGS
Sophie’s POV
“Vincent, I will just go out with your brother today.” I said to Vincent while we were having our breakfast.
He wiped his mouth with a napkin then he looked at me. “What for? Is that a date?”
“How I wish.” I said.
It became casual for the two of us to talk about his older brother ever since he found out that Lance is actually the man that I love. He didn’t get mad and care maybe because he doesn’t really care and we both know that we both don’t have feelings towards each other.
Actually, I became more comfortable around Vincent ever since that night happened. I mean, that night when we almost did it. Although I still haven’t asked him about that Monica that he mentioned that night.
“Sure, he’ll take care of you anyway. Just make sure that you won’t allow him to touch any of my properties.”Belongs to (N)ôvel/Drama.Org.
“I’m sure he wouldn’t want any of it either so you don’t have to worry about it.”
He just laughed. “Is he going to pick you up here?”
“Yes, he texted me earlier.”
“Okay. I think I’ll be going now. Let’s just meet each other later.”
“Okay.”
He stood up and walked towards my seat so I looked up at him. I was surprised when he suddenly leaned closer to me and gave me a quick kiss on my lips. “W-What the hell are you—
“Why? I’m just saying goodbye. And just to remind you, I already conquered that part.” He smiled cockily before he even started walking away.
“Pervert…” I whispered as I looked around me.
The maids were all looking at me while smiling which caused me to feel embarrassed.
I don’t even know how can he do that to a woman that he doesn’t even love.
Oh well, he’s a mafia boss after all. For sure he does that to every woman that he meets.
Sometimes I don’t even know how could I even deal with him.
“Miss Sophie, Young Master Lance is already waiting for you outside.” Venom suddenly announced.
“Okay, thank you.”
I stood up and looked myself in the mirror then I turned around to look at Venom. “Do I look okay?”
“You look beautiful as always, Miss Sophie.”
“You really are my friend, Venom. Bye~”
“Take care, Miss Sophie.”
Venom is no longer my bodyguard. She became my personal maid although I consider her as my best friend. I also asked Vincent if he could just make Venom as my classmate and he agreed. Starting next week, Venom will finally go to school with me.
“Hey.”
“Hey.”
Lance smiled as soon as he saw me. He was wearing a plain black t-shirt and a pair of black jeans. “Is V still there inside?”
“He just left.” I replied.
“Oh, okay. Shall we go now?”
“Sure.”
We rode inside his car and he started driving already. “So, Sophie. What do you think should I give to V?”
“Hmm, to be honest, I don’t even know what to give him either.”
“I’m actually thinking on just giving him a car, but he already has tons of them so I don’t think that would make a difference. I think I will just give him a jacket, perhaps?”
I leaned on the seat. “I think he would like it. He actually wears jacket a lot.”
“I think so too. How about you? What are you planning to give to him?”
“Maybe a pair of shoes?”
He nodded. “I see, that’s a good idea.”
“Do you think so?”
“Yeah. Let’s go to the mall then.”
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“Sophie, what do you think about this one?” Lance asked as he showed me a black denim jacket.
“Hmm, not bad but I don’t think he will like it,”
He nodded while pouting. “Okay, how about this one?”
“Does Vincent wear sweatshirts? I don’t think so.”
“Really? He doesn’t wear sweatshirts?”
“I usually see him wearing whether a suit or a plain t-shirt, but I never saw him wearing a sweatshirt.”
He heaved a sigh. ‘See? I can’t even tell what kind of clothes he likes to wear. ”
“It’s alright, maybe you can give him this one?” I said then I showed him a black leather jacket.
“Huh? That looks cool, Sophie! Alright, I think I’ll just choose that!”
“Okay.” I smiled.
In the end, Lance just decided to take that black leather jacket while I just chose to buy two neckties. One red and one blue with dog prints on them. Then we ate and we decided to go for a walk at the park behind the mall.
“By the way, Lance.”
“Hmm?”
“I-I just want to ask something; I hope you won’t mind it.”
He looked at me. “Sure, I won’t mind. What is it?”
“D-Do you already have a girlfriend?” I asked him with my hands shaking.
Lance didn’t speak for a while. He looked surprised about what I just asked him.
Silly me, why would I even ask him something that is already obvious?
“Yes, I do.” He answered.
I knew I already expected him to say that but I never thought that it would still hurt.
I looked away and forced a smile on my face. “I-I knew it, hehehe… I knew it, for sure she’s so lovely.”
He didn’t answer again. He just continues walking so I stopped, which made him look at me again. “Sophie?”
“Lance, I know it’s too late now, but I just want to say it to you.”
“Huh?”
I gathered all the courage that was left in me as I took a deep breath and looked into his eyes. “D-Do you know that you are my first love?”
His brows furrowed. “S-Sophie, what are you—
“I liked you ever since the day that I met you. I’ve been crushing on you ever since but I never had the chance to confess to you. I really liked you, Lance, no, I loved you. I loved you so much.”
Lance was just staring at me, obviously surprised.
For sure he’s already thinking that I’m so weird.
“B-But don’t worry, t-that was long ago. I now have a husband and you already have a girlfriend. I just wanted to say it because I wanted to finally move on from that. I mean, it’s not that I still love you, I-I just think that you deserve it. You deserve to know it.”
“Sophie….”
“I-I’m sorry…P-Please don’t avoid me just because of what I told you. I don’t want you to feel awkward. I just want to—
I wasn’t able to continue what I was saying because Lance suddenly pulled me close to him and hugged me. “You don’t have to apologize, Sophie… Thank you for saying it…”
I felt the tears filling up my eyes. I hugged Lance back as tears began running down my face.
I hugged him tightly.
A hug that would make him feel how much I loved him for so many years. A hug that would make him feel all the feelings that I have been keeping to myself.
Oh, how I love this man.
But maybe, we were never meant for each other. We met at the wrong time.
Lance smiled at me as soon as we both moved away from each other. “W-Why are you crying, Sophie?”
“N-Nothing…” I smiled. “I’m just so happy… I finally said it… I finally confessed to you.”
“Thank you.” He smiled back.
I stared at his face. “We can still be friends, right?”
Lance stared at me for a while before he finally nodded. “Friends.”
That night, I bid a farewell to my feelings for Lance, my first love.