Obsessive Flames of Love

Tanvi glanced at Rudra, her face eerily pale, and swallowed hard. Licking her lips while taking a huge breath, she began, “it happened six years ago.”

Rudra gave an encouraging nod and remained silent, trying to listen intently.

“When I’m in my graduation final year, I loved a man called Dhruv. He is then the founder of Teqware. We were good at the start, but in those days, I am a lot more troublesome girl.”

“Gradually he became tired of me, my dramas, and everything. So our relationship is also on a deteriorating track. One day I found him with another girl in an intimate moment.”

“My heart tugged with unbearable agony on seeing him like that. I tried to rescue my relationship, though I know he is wrong, and he scolded me to the point of my heartbreak. I gave him a hard slap on his face before I broke up with him.”

Tanvi paused for a while and continued, “I thought we are over from that moment. I came to my house in tears. I leaned on the corner of a wall while drowning in my sorrows of his cruel and harsh betrayal. I did everything for Dhruv, yet, in the end, he treated me like a disposable waste as I am no value to him and dumped me. His words are banging in my ears and are driving me to the depths of the abyss of insanity.”

Biting her inner cheek, she added, ” Suddenly, Dhruv came to my room in a drunken state. I was confused but then understood he has another key to my house. I regret that for many years yet it did not help me to forget what happened on that day. It is a black day in my life, and it made my life a living hell. I Never slept peacefully for many years from that day.”

“Seeing Dhruv in my room, I was beyond shocked and annoyed. He is not the man I know, and he appeared as a monster. He is coming closer to me with a cynical smile which scared me.” Tanvi wrapped her arms across herself in a protective manner when Rudra held her in his firm grip.

Biting her inner cheek, she continued, “I asked, What are you doing here, Dhruv? We are over. Get out of my sight. I shouted and tried stopping him, but of no use. He held my hands with full force and came to kiss me.”

“I am struggling in his grip and not cooperating with him. He gave a disgusting look at me and shouted you piece of scum. How dare you reject my kiss.”

“He is striking with cruelest words at me. I am kind of naive back then, and his presence is hurting me, so I kicked him hard and shouted at him.”

“Get out of my house, you bloody mother fucker. Later, I realized that I used the wrong choice of words when a big pang landed on my face. He slapped me so hard that I almost fell to one side.”

“With the burning pain, I tried to hold myself, but he violently attacked me with kisses, and it disgusted me.”

“How can he come to me after betraying me like that? I am trying to escape from his grip, and then he gave me another slap for not cooperating with him. He grabbed my hair roughly and dragged me to the bed.”

“I shouted in pain and shrieked with fear. Never until that day, he behaved like that with me. I am kicking him to leave me, and he gave a punch, and blood started dripping from the corners of my mouth, cheeks have his palm prints. My hair is messy, and I appeared like total trash.”

“He forcefully tore my top, and it got ripped with his strength. I am trembling in fear and trying to cover my upper body, but he is not allowing me to. I shouted for help, but he slapped me and pushed me with full force.”

“He jumped on me like a cruel animal. I am crying and begging him to leave me. But he disgustingly touched my boobs and started licking them. It made my body appear like garbage to me.”

“I am struggling with the bruises he is giving me, and the pain is haunting me. He ripped my pajama and underwear in one swift. I am humiliated by his touch and the words he used against me. You bitch!!! You act as mighty in front of me, and in reality, you are a slut.”

“With that, he seized my hair harshly and spanked me again. I am shivering with fear and feeling helpless. I am praying to God to save me from his hands, but luck is not on my side.”

“He removed his clothes in a split second and bounced on me violently. I am begging him to leave me, but in a single rough swift, he inserted his manhood inside me. The intolerable pain seeped through my spine, I cried my heart out, but my cries did not stop him.”

“In fact, he fastened his pace with each thrust. It is like killing me with pain and disgrace. It is not gentle, not love but ruined me, forced me, and abused me. He stole my virginity. My entire body became sore and numb, and I collapsed on the bed naked.”ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

“By the time I woke up, Ameera is by my side and covering me. I am shivering with a heavy fever and in no position to move a bit. She took me to the hospital, but it mentally impacted me heavily, and I am traumatized by the action of events that took place the previous day.”

“I suffered a tremendous shock, an unbearable pain in my heart, humiliation, disgust, and betrayal. I fell into depths of depression. I vacated that place and moved to another house far away from that. I no longer dared to face society, my parents, or my friends. I became a lifeless existing soul.”

“Only Ameera knew it until today. After that disastrous incident, I used to lock myself across the closed walls and used to cry until I fall out of energy. I used to break things, and shout crazily until my throat become hoarse, used to hurt myself. I need enormous physical pain to avoid that emotional pain in my heart, which is eating me alive.”

“Sleep became my enemy, for even a small sound I used to frighten and tremble. My entire body became numb with nightmares, fears, and insecurities, which are driving me insane, and my mind is a mess. Illusions keep on haunting me with him forcing me, and I am becoming weak day by day. I took a lot of medications and treatments to sleep and to get recover from the trauma.”

“It doesn’t matter how many therapies I took, yet still, a part in me felt, The man I once loved, betrayed me and forced me to the extent, I could not recognize him and myself anymore. The suffering he gave me is for a lifetime.”

“It took me three years to completely recover from the shock. But, I am not mentally or emotionally ready to get close to anyone. I built walls across myself, and I made myself aloof from this cruel world. ”

“The word marriage itself terrified me to the core in those years. That’s the reason I never had the intention to love or marry after the tragedy in my life. I put a bold facade to the outer world, while I’m destructing from inside.”

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Rudra’s blood boiled by listening to what that scoundrel did. “You hit my precious wife and forced her!” Rudra clenched his fists in anger by reminding that son of a bitch, “Dhruv.”

Tanvi has no courage left to look at Rudra. By listening to his piercing cold tone and his fury, she thought it is on her. She removed his grip and tried to leave, then Rudra realized and hugged her.

He gave her the comfort and warmth she needed. She cried in his embrace, and he kissed her tears.

“Through my journey, I learned many things and had changed a lot in person. I fought with my struggles alone without any support due to the fear of judgment. I did not even allow Ameera to be with me in those years, and I evolved as a new Tanvi, with a new ray of hope. I understood my purpose of survival is not just love nor depression, and I can do many things in my life with my willpower.” Tanvi looked at him and said in a choked voice. Rudra consoled her and felt exultant with her courage, strength, and strong determination.

“Hush! That’s all your past. It’s all over. Relax, honey.” He whispered in her ear and planted gentle kisses on her. “No matter how tragic your past is, you are Mrs. Tanvi Rudra now. I will cherish you, Tanvi. I will give you all the love you deserve. I will make you stand at the pinnacle wherever you want.” He softly kissed her lips.

“I will heal you with my love.” He whispered and hugged her. Tanvi felt relieved after sharing her hidden burden from many years with him, and she slowly fell asleep in his arms peacefully.

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