The Billionaire’s Lust Love

STEVEN

Like yesterday, I went to the hospital at night. I was outside the door of Hivo’s room. My son.

I didn’t know why I’m nervous. I’m wondering if he’s mad at me. ‘Will he accept me or what? I miss him a lot.’Copyright Nôv/el/Dra/ma.Org.

I guess this was the situation where the nervousness I felt doubled.

I looked at my watch and it was eleven o’clock at night. I’m so damn scared. I’ve been an irresponsible father to him.

I slowly entered the room and found Ria sleeping next to the child who was also sleeping.

It was as if something caressed my heart with regret and anger when I saw them. I am ashamed that I couldn’t remember the woman I love. The frustrating part was no matter how hard I try to remember her, I always ended up nothing.

I stepped forward, and stood next to my son and watched him sleeping soundly.

I wonder how he cried when he was a baby. I wondered how he laugh for the first time. How he looked like in his first walk and first run. What was the first word he uttered?

Was it mama? Was it papa? Was it a milk? God! I wanted to cry..

I missed a lot of events in his life.

I couldn’t stop myself crying while looking at my son. Right, I have a son already.

My son opened his eyes and I didn’t know how to react. His forehead furrowed while looking at me and gradually he frowned.

I’m nervous and I didn’t know what to do. The joy I felt when I saw my face to my son’s face. He really looked like me. He’s indeed my son. No need for DNA. I could feel it too. We shared the same blood. He has my blood, my veins, my flesh, my son. I immediately wiped the tears from my eyes while looking at him.

I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t know if I should smile or what.

I stepped closer to him and sat in the chair next to him. Ria was still sleeping peacefully. I know she’ll be surprised when she sees me here.

“Hi,” I smiled while looking at my son.

I wanted to say to him that he’s my son or my buddy but I didn’t know if it’s right.

He might be surprised or something. I didn’t even know if he’s happy or what.

‘I don’t want my son to be afraid of me.’

His frowning face gradually disappeared. For the first time, I was shocked to see tears running down from his face.

“Hey what’s wrong bud-

“DAD!!!” I did not act immediately. Time seemed to stop running. My world stopped spinning when he called me dad.

I felt like someone punched my heart when I saw the joy on his face to see me. The excitement on his face was obvious.

He tried to stand up so I immediately picked him up while he was crying.

“Hivo-

Ria woke up and gasped and surprised to see me carrying our son. I couldn’t even stop my tears from falling while hugging my son

I didn’t know how to calm him. I just hugged him while carrying him in my arms. It was the first time I hugged and held him and I am so damn happy. Fvck!

RIALYN

Hivo cried for more than ten minutes in his father’s arms. I was shocked to see Steven inside carrying our son.

I saw the pain in his eyes as he looked at me. I cried when I saw our son clinging to his father while crying.

I stood up and approached them. I don’t have any idea why Steven is here. I don’t know if someone told him the truth or he just found out because he looks so much like his son.

Did he tell Hivo that he’s his father? Or Hivo recognized him right away?

“Come here son. Mama will carry you.” I said but he shook his head and buried his face to his father’s neck.

“I want dad, mom.” He’s really sure that Steven is his dad even though no one told him or shown him a picture of Steven.

“Alright, but you need to get down. Your-” I stopped up for a moment because I’m unsure if it’s right to say the term dad. “Your dad might get tired for carrying you.”

I looked at Steven and he was silent while also looking at me.

My son looked at his father. “Are you tired, dad?” His voice was still weak.

Steven shook his head and smiled at our son then kissed him on the forehead. “Of course no, son. Daddy can carry you all day.” He said to his son and Hivo smiled from ear to ear.

“Really dad?”

“Yes,”

Hivo smiled and turned to look at me.

“Thank you, mommy,” he said. Why is he thanking me when I’m not the one who carried him?

“For what?”

“Because you kept your promise to find dad.” I was surprised to hear that and it seemed like, I was not the only one who was also surprised by what our son said.

“You can stay at home just like before I asked you to look for dad, right mom? Because daddy is here so you don’t have to leave everyday.” Hivo’s voice cracked at the end and I couldn’t answer that. I just cried because of what he said.

“You don’t want me to leave every day?” I asked him. He nodded and leaned on his father’s shoulder.

“Yes, mommy. I don’t you to leave,”

I stepped forward to kiss him on his forehead. “Alright, my love. Mommy won’t leave you again. Go back to sleep,”

“Dad?” Steven wiped the tears from his eyes before answering Hivo.

“Yes son?”

“You’re not leaving, are you?”

“No, I won’t,” Steven answered seriously while looking at me.

“Goodnight mom. Goodnight dad.” Hivo immediately fell asleep so Steven put him back on the bed.

When our son slept peacefully, the ambiance between me and Steven became awkward.

I don’t know how to deal him.

“You need sleep,” I said because it’s late.

“I’m fine. I’m not sleepy.”

“You want coffee?”

He didn’t answer. He just looked straight into my eyes. For the first time, I got nervous.

“Babe, I mean Steven.. -” I was surprised when he suddenly knelt in front of me.

I didn’t know what to do.

He was on his knees and his head bowed. I looked at him, eyes wide open.

“I’m… sorry,” his voice cracked. Steven is crying. He’s crying while kneeling in front of me.

“I’m sorry… I’m such a useless father.” I couldn’t stop the tears from falling in my eyes. I couldn’t help it especially because I could clearly hear his sobs while saying sorry.

Did I make a mistake in not telling him right away?

“I’m sorry because I let you down,” he added.

Did he remember everything 6 years ago? Including me?

I knelt down to face him. I took his hands and looked into his eyes.

I can clearly see the regret there.

When I saw him carrying our son earlier, I almost passed out.

I was wrong to think that he wouldn’t accept Hivo. I was wrong in the part that I thought he couldn’t accept our son.

“I’m sorry Steven,” I apologized while wiping the tears from his eyes.

“I’m sorry because I didn’t tell you right away.”

“I’m sorry because I was scared.” I could barely see him because of the tears.

“I was afraid that you might reject our son.” I added.

He hugged me.

“Babe, I should be the one… I should be the one to apologize. I’m sorry Ria. I’m sorry babe. I’m sorry because I didn’t remember you right away. I’m sorry because I can’t remember you. I’m sorry because now I am late. I’m… Sorry.” Something in my chest tightened when Steven cried at the end.

I buried my face in his chest. I shed all my tears. I hugged him and let myself be vulnerable.

I’m tired of being strong.

I was carrying alone the fears of raising Hivo. What if I fail as a mother? There are many what if’s and I have no one to share with those anxieties.

I leaned on Steven’s shoulder while looking at our son.

“You need to go home Steven-”

“No babe. I’m staying here. I want to be here when our son wakes up.”

“Okay,”

There was silence between us. But I’m happy that he’s here for Hivo.

“Babe, can I ask something?”

“Yes. About what?”.

“About our son,”

Our son. Hmm. Sounds nice.

“Yes. What do you want to ask?”

“What’s his favorites? Does he have a favorite food? Toys? Or anything? Can you tell me about him? I want to know everything.” I was surprised. He’s excited to know everything about Hivo.

“Okay. Let’s start with the foods he likes.”

“He likes meat. And complains about vegetables,” I said and saw the satisfaction in his eyes. The edge of his lips rose as if he remembered something.

“Yes. Like you,” I added. In the few months that I served him, that’s what I noticed about him. He doesn’t like vegetables.

“He likes playing basketball. He have many basketballs in the house. I guess he never gets tired of it.” I chuckled.

Steven’s face crumpled.

“That motherfvcker,” he said.

“Why?” I asked him confused.

“He knew you and yet, he didn’t even tell me.”

“Oh. About that, I think Kael didn’t know either. They were in Canada and Hivo was just a baby when he first saw it. So I think he didn’t know that my son-”

“Our Ria. Our son.” He corrected me with a frown.

I rolled my eyes.

“Okay. I think Kael knows nothing. He didn’t see Hivo when he was growing up. But then, I remembered that he said that Hivo looked like his friend when he first saw him. I think, he meant you. ”

He sighed and looked at me.

“Babe,”

“Yes?”

“Come and live with me,” he said staring at me. What? Is he kidding me? Is he asking me to live with him in his house?

Based on his looks, obviously, he’s not joking. I gulped!