Unforgiven Sins

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BenChua’s POV

I can’t understand myself anymore. I’ve been in a daze for almost a few weeks thinking about her- Cinyla.

I miss you so much! D*nm this love! I looked at our picture saved in my gallery. Honestly, I just fell in love like this, the type that made my world revolve around him.

But there is doubt that I am confused right now, I am currently here in the office and trying to read an employee’s profile because Mr. Espio said Angela and Rio have great potential and they deserve to be promoted. But when I am looking for their resume to double-check their qualifications, the first thing I saw was different. I saw Cinyla’s paper. I almost fainted because of the speed of my heart.

Is this his last name? I can’t believe it. I almost went crazy thinking of something because we have the same last name. I don’t want to think about it, but I remember my dad when they always argued with my mom.

FLASHBACK

“Are you leaving again, huh?!”

“Babe, we’ve talked about this. My daughter misses me too. I need to go home, it’s hard for her mother to worry and think!”

“Fine! Come home on Saturday, because you and your wife still have a child! But remember, we need you. Go ahead and be careful.”

END OF FLASHBACK

I looked from my cell phone where he was also my wallpaper. I almost stared at it and melt my heart. I can’t believe my love. It is impossible, very impossible. No matter what happen I will fight for you; I will be with you even at the last breath of mine.

I fix myself when someone knocks on my door.

“Come in!”

A man wearing glasses entered. He is Leo, my investigator. “Why are you here?” I asked.

It looks different and he gives me a brown envelope. “What is this?” confusedly said.

“Open it, bro. Everything you were looking for last time is there,” he said seriously.

My heart beat faster again but I opened it straight away and saw some pieces of paper with a picture. I don’t understand, I’m confused but I have to see.

I took it and my shoulders almost collapsed at what I saw next. Cinyla is here with her family.

“Cinyla Brights Montevilla is your step sister. Her father is Mr. Paolo Montevilla.”

I just bit my lower lip and almost held back my anger. I wanted to see him but suddenly that disappeared when I knew the truth.

“What are you going to do now? Do you still court and love her after this thing is revealed?” he asked. I almost pierced my heart with a big needle. What am I supposed to do?

“Thanks, bro! Leave me alone. I need to refresh and calm down. I don’t know what to do yet. What a mess!”

He patted my right shoulder, “I am so sorry! I was also surprised by what I found out, but you need to know this and if Tita finds out, I don’t know what will happen. Someone will get hurt if you continue.” “Anyway, I need to go! Call me if you need something, take care, bro!”

“Thanks, bro!” I let out a forced smile and he left my office completely. I took a breath and put aside the brown envelope he gave me, I hid it under my desk and I didn’t even finish what I was doing. I have also lost the will to look for their resume.

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I drive by myself, even though I don’t know where I go because of the pain that I have right now. Mixed emotions and my heart, telling me that it is wrong. We’re not! We are not sibling by father side which feels like it’s been stabbed me many times.

Why me? Why us?

As I drive along, my feet bring me to their house. It’s like I don’t know why I am here waiting for her to come out and don’t know what happened, I don’t understand.

I chose to compose myself and go to him, calmed down before finally ringing the doorbell.

On my first doorbell, no one opened the gate, but on the second. His mother came out and she was smiling. My heart ached but I still faced him calmly. I waved and wished him good morning.

“Hi, BenChua! Come in!” We went straight into their living room.

“I’m sorry auntie for coming without any say, by the way where is Cinyla?”

“No, it’s all right! Maybe she go to her friend. Do you want to wait for her? Don’t worry she will go home now, ” she happily.

“Y-yes,” I stammered.

“Alright, just wait for her, I’ll make you something to drink first. I just smiled in response to what she said.

While waiting for Cinyla  I got up and walked around. It seemed like I was looking for something but I didn’t know what it was until I went straight upstairs. I went up without being told and it was my feet that had their own words and decisions.

I went straight into Cinyla’s room. I got in right away because it didn’t have a lock, I slowly looked around and after a while, I saw his gentle face again because of his solo picture that was placed in a picture frame.

You are beautiful!

While looking at her picture, auntie speak. “Here’s your drink BenChua.” She gives me a one glass of orange juice.

I received it and smile. “Thank you, auntie, I’m sorry that I went upstairs, my feet is excited to see her.” I joked even it is common and corny but auntie smile.

“No worries! I understand you. Just to open, your attitude looks like her father because  that’s how her father do when he missed Cinyla. He totally go upstairs without talking. Anyway, I need to do something, just wait her here.”

“Sure auntie, if it’s okay with you.”

“Yes dear! Kindly wait her,” I smiled and she leaves me.

Until I heard footsteps that seemed to be hurrying. I see a gorgeous lady. Her eyes telling me something and her lips looks different, like I can’t look too long then, auntie speak. “Oh my daughter finally you are here. BenChua is here. I need to do something, talk to him now.”

I realized that auntie is still there when Cinyla come until she come closer to me. Wait… I can’t speak. Why she is d*mn goddess!

“Sir B-BenChua, why are you here?”

After couple of minutes I answer her, “H-hi l-love! How are you?”

Se sit beside me and answer me, ” I’m good! Why you are here?”

“To visit you.”

I want to elaborate my explanation and begin to ask her some serious matters and be mad in her. But instead of getting angry and questioning her about what I saw earlier and know earlier. I absentmindedly stand up and kiss her. “I miss you, Cinyla.” My hug is tight as if it’s not a day since we haven’t seen each other. I thought he would avoid me but he hugged me back. What does this mean?

“I miss you too, love.” She hugged me as she missed me a lot.

“I am fine, how are you? Why are you here? Do you need something?” My heart beat faster again. She released me from my embrace and she looked at me with her confusing thoughts.

I didn’t respond immediately, why am I speechless and blank when it comes to you? It took me a few moments to come back to reality when he touched my right palm.

“Love, are you with me? Are you fine, huh?” she asked and touched my head to check if I am still good.

I quickly response, “Yes, love!”

She just smiled and sat next to me. “Do you want to eat?” she asked as she cares about me. I was confused about why she did this but honestly, I am glad to hear this from her.

“Not yet, are you hungry?” We can go outside if you want. If not, I suggest you cook now.” She laughed because she thinks I am joking but this is true, I want her to cook for me. The wind blew differently as if we were both worried about each other.

But to be honest, he’s the one I feel weird about. She wants me, she loves me now. But… is all this true?

He hold my hand again causing me to feel a war inside my heart. “Let’s go to the kitchen. Come with me to cook.” She pulled my hand and we were going downstairs. I  smiled as she was doing now. I hope she’s always like this. I don’t want to think about what she has or her past.

But… Maybe soon I will know the truth. But no matter what… I… I love you, Cinyla even though I don’t know if we met for a reason or not.