Unspoken Pleasure

"No, you're not. We're all dealing with this. I couldn't sleep either," Lexi lied. She'd passed out like a dead woman. But admitting that to her brother felt like a kind of defeat. That his guilt earned him a kind of moral superiority. Or, worse, that he'd given her a level of physical satisfaction that she'd been unable to provide back to him in return. In either scenario, Lexi was clearly the lesser being. She wasn't ready to concede that to her annoying, dopey (admittedly really sexy) little brother.

"Can we, I don't know, talk?" Austin asked, his blue eyes shining. He grabbed his sister's hand and she let him.

"Yes, I'd like that," Lexi said, "But maybe we should go back to your tent. I don't want to wake anyone else up."

Austin bobbed his head like a happy puppy. He started heading back, then he stopped. "Can you walk OK?"

"Not great," Lexi said. Very seriously, Austin went back to his big sister and slid under her arm, letting her rest her weight on him. The two of them made their way back to the tents.

"So. You and Dad, huh?" Austin said as they walked together. Lexi felt her face go hot.

"Youwerebetter," she said. It had just spilled out. Lexi hadn't even intended on saying anything but there it was. Worse, Lexi knew that it was totally true. Being with her father had been fun, but with Austin it was different. Special. So much for her precious superiority.

Austin stopped and looked at his sister, eyes wide. His mouth made word-like motions, but no sound came out.

"I just... I liked it better with you, OK?" Lexi said, "I don't know why, but I did. I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry?" Austin asked. The siblings started walking again.

"I don't know. God, this is weird."

"Everything about today was weird," Austin said.

"No kidding," Lexi said.

They got back to Austin's tent and crawled inside. Lexi's little brother opened his sleeping bag completely and laid it out, so they both had something to lie on. Lexi thought of a story she'd heard at State. About some wild party back east where they zipped naked people into sleeping bags and made them fuck while everyone watched. Lexi had heard that the grand finale had featured a brother and sister and thought it was bullshit. Now she wasn't so sure. Lexi lay down on her side and Austin stretched out across from her. He reached back and flicked on a flashlight. It was still dark, but now Lexi could see her little brother's face in the yellowish glow. He really was cute, she thought. Nice jaw, jutting cheekbones, just the right bit of stubble. For a moment Lexi thought about leaning over and kissing him but she stopped herself. She needed a subject change and fast.

"So," she said, "You and Mom, huh?"

Austin's face went red and his eyes fled to the floor. "Yeah, um, you may have been right before about, you know. Me and my little crush."

"That looked like more than a crush," Lexi said.

"Yeah, well, for someone who doesn't have feelings for Dad, you seemed pretty involved, yourself."

"I'm sorry Austin," Lexi said, "I'm not trying to make you feel bad. I'm actually kind of, like, happy for you? Is that strange? Like I know you have feelings for Mom and you got to act on them. To have your fantasy. That's kind of awesome." "And you?" Austin asked, "Did you get to live out your, ummm, crush or whatever?"

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"I didn't know what it was until it happened," Lexi said, "But yes. Up on the mountainside? I got what I wanted."

Austin thought for a moment and then it dawned on him. He turned bright red all over again. Cute, yes, but maybe not too bright, Lexi reflected. God girl, you really can pick them. "And you don't feel bad about that?" Austin asked, "What happened up there? You and me?"

"What were we supposed to do, exactly?" Lexi said, "You were there. You felt it. I'd have stuffed a cactus up my cunt if that was my only option in that moment."

"I shouldn't have fucked you," Austin said.

"You had to," Lexi said

"I shouldn't have... In Mom."

"She made you," Lexi said.

"God, I know that's all true and yet I also feel like maybe..."

"Look, Austin, today was... I mean I'm struggling with it too. Because on the one hand it was kind of amazing and wonderful but at the same time it was also maybe the worst day of my life? I don't know. What happened to us was inexplicable and weird and also totally out of our control. We're probably all going to need therapy -- God, so much therapy -- and even then, it's something that we're going to have to figure out a way to live with for the rest of our lives. But we are going to find a way to live with it, OK? Together. I promise."

Lexi reached out and, on instinct, pulled her brother close. Squeezed him tight. Pressed his head to her chest and stroked his hair.

"I know I haven't been the best big sister lately," Lexi said, "But I'm here for you. For anything. Promise."

"Yes," Austin said, oddly distant and distracted, "Uh huh." Lexi leaned back and eyed her brother, warily. She noticed his breathing had started coming quickly. The tent was comfortable, even cool, but Austin was sweating bullets. His eyes wide. "Lexi?" Austin asked. Little boy voice trembling. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her close again. His urgency pressed hard into her thigh.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

"You said you'd be here for me," Austin said, "For anything?"

"Yes," Lexi whispered in his ear. Lips almost touching him. "Anything."

"But what if?"

"Even that."

Austin looked up at his older sister and nodded, very seriously. Like that was all he needed to hear. He pulled at Lexi's tank top and the tall brunette lifted her arms to help him get it off her. Lexi wasn't wearing a bra, and her little breasts bounced out, happily, as her younger brother exposed them to the open air.

Austin dove into Lexi's cleavage and immediately latched on to her left nipple. Lexi moaned -- a combination of satisfaction and pain. Austin sucked so hard that Lexi feared her nipple would be purple instead of pink by the time he stopped.