Chapter 76
Chapter 76
Cheater! That's what I was.
Buttoning up my blouse I tucked it back into my skirt. What had I just done? Feeling his arms circle my waist made me feel physically sick. Now I was just like him. A cheater, a liar.
"You okay darlin'?"
How could I have been so stupid?
"I have to go" I muttered slipping out of his arms and out of the closet. Basically running to my office I locked the door behind me once I was safely inside. Sliding down the door I burst into tears.
What the fuck was wrong with me? I was no different from him. I was so fucking stupid to even let him touch me. Running my hands into my hair I screamed through my tears. How could I have let him get to me like that? How am I going to tell Nate?
Nate! Sweet, sweet Nate....
Feeling my phone vibrate from inside my pocket I pulled it out my moms number flashing on the screen. Wiping away my tears I cleared my throat before answering.
"Hi" I croaked pulling the phone away from my ear and putting it on loud speaker.
"Hey honey just checking you're still coming tonight?"
"I- I don't know if I can mom I'm up to my eye balls in it here"
"But Ava it's to welcome... Wait have you been crying?" She asked her voice automatically changing tone.
How could she always tell?
"No mom it's just been a long day that's all I can't promise I'll be there for 7 but I will drop by as soon as I can. Give him a big kiss from me okay" I said hoping she didn't push the crying question further.
Hearing her sigh I knew she wasn't going to let it go but I really didn't want to talk about what I had just done.Material © NôvelDrama.Org.
"Are you sure you're okay baby? If you can't make it tonight Ava it's okay. You can always spend time with him when you get a day off. Are you taking care of yourself properly? Eating right? Getting enough sleep?".
Rolling my eyes I grinned at how worried she always got. "I'll try and be there mom and yes I'm fine stop worrying about me".
"I'll always worry about you Ava and remember I'll always be here if you need to talk and I mean talk about anything. I'll set a place for you just in case you make it. Don't work to hard and I hope I see you tonight. Take care baby, bye".
Ending the call I slipped my phone back into my pocket and got up from the floor. Putting on the kettle I slouched into the chair behind my desk. Why did I let him get to me like that? If things weren't already bad enough I had just made them worse. Resting my arms on my desk I lay my head in my hands.
Stupid stupid bitch...
Taking out my phone it vibrated in my hand showing I had one new message.
'Is it safe to come in? Well that's if you even want me there? Ally x
Not bothering to text back I pushed myself onto my feet and unlocked the door. Walking back to my desk I grabbed my mug and went on to make some coffee.
"Want me to lock it again?" She asked
Stirring my coffee I shrugged my shoulders at her question. I wasn't in the mood to talk or to be here. I felt horrible inside for what I had done. "Okay then"
"Do you need something Ally?" I questioned walking back behind my desk and turning on my computer knew I had files to update so it would keep me occupied and
cooped up in my office for at least and hour.
"I just wanted to apologise for what I said. I was out of line and I shouldn't have said it".
"Yeah you shouldn't have" I muttered
keeping my focus on my screen. Ally had became my best friend in the last few months but I was still
I
pissed at what she said. "Anything else I added taking a sip of my coffee.
"I-I can stay on tonight if you need to go home" She stuttered making me feel really bad.
Sighing I turned my focus on her as I sat back in my chair. "I'm sorry for acting like a bitch it's just-..."
"Your sorry? I should be the one apologising Ava" She said cutting me off "Me and my big mouth. Are you needing me to stay on so you can go?".
"I'm sure there's enough staff to cover the both of us and I'm not sure Cage would be happy with you if you didn't turn up" I smirked watching her blush.
"He's so hot headed when he doesn't get his own way. I mean did you see the way he spoke to me in front of you and Blaze? He doesn't give a shit who's around" She sighed causing me to laugh.
As we fell into a comfortable silence my phone buzzed as a new message came through.
'Hey beautiful, I hope you aren't working to hard. I've planned something for you tomorrow so I'm hoping you pull a sicky lol! Enjoy your night babe and give me a message when your home. Nate X"
Reading it over and over again I wanted to cry. I had an amazing guy and I had to go fuck it all up. Why was I such an idiot?
"Ava are you okay?" Ally asked breaking me out of my thoughts.
"I fucked up Ally, I fucked up bad" I sobbed
"Wow what's happened?" Coming round beside me she sat on the edge of my desk. "Surely it can't be that bad hon".
"I've just messed up my relationship with a great guy and now I don't know what to do. How do I even tell him?" I cried wiping away my tears on the end of my sleeve.
"How did you mess it up?"
"That doesn't matter I just know I have and I don't know what to do".
Placing her hand on my shoulder she gave it a gentle squeeze. "I'm sure what ever it is Nate can forgive you. He seems like a really nice guy and he's totally into you".
"He won't"
"Come on let's just get out of here" Grabbing my hand she pulled me up. "I don't like seeing my friend upset and right now work isn't the place to be so grab your bag and let's go".
"I - I need to make sure there is cover I can't just leave". I croaked slipping my phone into my handbag. "There's cover trust me there are other people that work in here besides me and you so screw it and move".
I wasn't going to say no to that not
n
when I was feeling this shitty. "Are you sure there's enough staff left? Grabbing my coat from the coat stand slipped it on. "Yes now come on its almost six we can stop of at mine first and freshen up".
"Okay"..