Forbidden Desire

I find myself remembering that kiss from yesterday and realize there wasn’t any feeling in it, it was just a pure reflex of my body, but nothing compared to what I felt when I kissed Jane. I remember our first kiss and think about how we complement each other. Before I know it, I’m grinning like a fool and can’t control my emotions anymore.

“I’m not confused anymore. Lee, you’re right. How could I have been so blind all this time? It’s Jane. It’s her that I love. I’ve never felt this way before, not with Jinhee or anyone else.”

“Then you’re going to?”

“I’m going to propose to her!”

When I realize, some tears of happiness are streaming down my face, and Lee stands up, giving me a hug.

“Go for it, man! Be happy with the woman you love, and I know loves you.”

“But, how am I going to do it?”

I stop to think that I haven’t even bought a ring, and I’m only signing the divorce papers on Tuesday.

“Dude, this is a very important moment! Plan it out, buy a ring, and make it a surprise. No need to rush.”

“You’re right.”

I stop to think and soon have the perfect idea.

“I know. Next week there’s another stage of the contest she’s participating in, and I know she’s going to win. I can make a special dinner, decorate the house with flowers, romantic music, and at the end of the night, propose to her!”

“That’s it! If you need my help, just let me know!”

I stare at Lee, thinking about what could have happened if I had entered that Strip bar instead of calling him.

“Thank you, really. I don’t know what I’d do without your advice.”

“Nothing. Glad I could put some sense into that stubborn head of yours.”

We laugh, and he shrugs.

“So what are you waiting for?”

“What do you mean?”

“Go apologize to your wife already.”

I remember her hugging Venom, and my chest tightens.

“But what if she’s really with him?”

“Don’t jump to any conclusions. Talk to her; I’m sure everything has an explanation. Jane loves you, man, I’m sure of it!”

For a moment, all her drawings come to my mind, the way she looked at me, how she noticed details about me that I didn’t even notice myself.

“You’re right. Thanks, buddy! Now I’m going after my woman!”

“Go ahead and invite me to the wedding!”

“You’ll be the best man!”

I say as I get up to leave with a smile on my face. I get into the car and call Jane, but she doesn’t answer, so for a moment, I feel angry thinking she’s with him, but I try to think of Lee’s words and calm down, start the car, and drive home. I climb the stairs already thinking about what I would say to her, and before I could enter the house, I saw her sitting on one of the loungers near the pool looking at the city lights, and my heart races as I realize how much I love her. She’s still wearing the blue dress she wore to the exhibition, and her high-heeled shoes are lying beside the lounger. I approach her, and she doesn’t seem to notice, her gaze seems distant, and I can’t think of anything to say. There’s only one sentence I want to shout to the world. I just want to tell her how much I love her, but by the way I acted today, I knew I had to apologize first.

“I’m sorry!”

She doesn’t turn to look at me, doesn’t seem surprised, and doesn’t even blink. She just takes a deep breath, and I see a tear roll down her face with no expression. When her voice finally becomes present, it’s weak, choked by the tears that probably consumed her all night.

“Do you know how many times you’ve told me that?”

“I know, but this time is different.”

“If you apologize but keep doing the same things, it means nothing.”

“Jane…”

“I’m tired, Jaemin. Tired of feeling like this.”

“Like what?”

“Like the second option. Like a substitute. Like the other woman.”

“Jane, you’re not my second option. You’re my choice, the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. I’ve told you that before.”

“And you’ve said it, but every time Jinhee appears, it’s clear who you really love, and yesterday I realized that she loves you too, so what am I doing here?”

She hides her face with her hands, but I see the tears falling more and more frequently. I try to approach, but she raises a hand signaling for me not to come closer.

“Jane…”

“I’ve decided I’m not going to interfere with you two anymore.”

“What are you talking about? You’re not interfering with anything…”

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She smiles amidst the tears, and seeing her like this is destroying me, so when I realize, I’m also crying.

“Yesterday, I could see that I’m just an intruder, I was only getting in the way of you two. Before, I thought I deserved you because I loved you and she didn’t. But yesterday, I saw that she loves you too, so how can I come between you two? You want to be together, and I won’t get in the way.”

I realize how difficult it was for her to say these words, and we’re both out of breath from crying so much. I couldn’t take it anymore and knelt beside the lounger where she was sitting, getting at her eye level, she hides her face with her hands, and I approach her face, taking her hands away. When she looks at me, I can see how hurt she is, and I kiss her cheek, trying to push those thoughts away from her. She closes her eyes and stands up, moving away from me, she turns her back on me, and when she speaks, I feel my heart tighten.

“Jason, I’ve decided to leave…”

“No, Jane!”

I get up and go to her, but when I grab her waist, she escapes from my touch.

“It’s the best thing to do now, so you can be happy with the woman you love.”

I approach her, turning her abruptly to me, and she’s startled by my attitude, she tries to escape from my touch, and I hold her face in my hands.

“The thing is, the woman I love is you, Jane!”

She looks at me confused, but now that I’ve started, I can’t stop.

“I’m sorry it took me so long to realize this and ended up hurting you so much. But it’s you that I love, Jane, only you…”

“Jason…”

She tries to escape again, but I hold her in my arms, determined never to let her escape from me again.

“I never loved Jinhee, and it took me too long to realize that. I took too long to realize how stupid I was being. It’s you that I love, Jane. I’ve never felt for anyone what I feel for you, and I know I’ll never feel this way again. You completely won me over from the first day, and I was too stupid not to realize it sooner. I’m sorry for the things I’ve done; I promise that from now on, I’ll do everything to make you happy and never hurt you again.”

I see her eyes shining so intensely as her crying subsides that not even the starry sky above us is as bright.

“You’re the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. Only you!”

She’s sobbing so much, and after taking a deep breath, she lets her sweet voice fill the air.

“Are you sure?”

“I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life. I love you, Jane! I love you! I love you!”

I start kissing her, and soon, a smile appears on her lips. I can feel her body, which was tense before, relaxing, and I can’t resist picking her up, making her wrap her legs around my hips, and running with her to the bedroom. I’m startled when we pass by the living room, and I see Bianca there already in pajamas. She seems shocked to see us so close, but she doesn’t say anything, just runs away from there. I ignore it and climb the stairs, carrying my woman to our room. As soon as we enter, I reach for the clasp of her dress, practically tearing it off, making her smile.

“What’s the hurry?”

“I want you now, Jane!”

I lay her on the bed, getting between her legs, and I realize that I’ve never wanted a woman as much as I want her. I slide her dress off her body, leaving her with only a black lace lingerie, and I stop to observe every detail of her perfect body while she smiles. I take off my blazer, and when I go to take off my shirt, she helps me unbutton it. When I couldn’t wait any longer, I pull the shirt off, buttons flying everywhere. I’m unbuttoning my belt, but when I see her take off her bra, I go crazy, diving into her breasts, which soon harden under my touch.

“Love, I want you!”

“I can’t wait anymore either!”

I undo my pants while she takes off her panties, and before I could take off my pants, she pulls me towards her, devouring my lips with her plump mouth and crossing her legs around my body, pulling me towards her. When I position myself at her entrance, I realize how wet she is, and I go crazy.

“I love feeling you like this, dripping for me.”

“It’s you that makes me like this!”

I enter her all at once, making her moan softly as she squeezes me.

“I love you!”

She kisses my neck and smiles.

“Say it again!”

I pull out of her and enter again, feeling my cock hitting the depths of her.

“I love you, Jane!”

I increase the speed and force of my thrusts, and I see her smile as her body arches with pleasure.

“Say that you love me…”

I lean on my elbows, bringing my face close to hers as I enter and leave her without stopping. I see her lips move to say what I so wanted to hear, but all I can hear are her moans. She holds me with her legs while squeezing me, and I can feel she’s almost climaxing, so I increase the speed, going deeper into her, knowing that I only want to lose myself in her. I feel her body trembling, and soon, I feel she’s climaxing, I look at her, and see the smile on her face, and then hear what I so desperately needed.

“I love you Jason! I love you so much!”

She kisses me, and in her kiss, I can feel how much she’s surrendered, I move, keeping my rhythm, feeling an extreme pleasure that I know I only feel with her. When I thought it couldn’t get any better, she gets on top of me and starts grinding slowly while kissing me.

“That’s it, love… like that…”

She sits on me, and I observe every detail of her, the way she looks at me with so much love and desire at the same time. I see her breasts bouncing while we make love, and although she’s doing it slowly, I’m delirious.

“You’re so beautiful, my girl!”

I pull her to kiss her plump lips, and she starts to go up and down on my cock while kissing me.

“That’s it, love… like that…”

She increases the speed of her bouncing, and I hear her moaning louder and louder, but I want this to last longer, so I hold her waist and take control, entering and leaving her slowly, making her delirious.

“I want to feel you without hurry.”

She lets out a moan as I slowly reach the depths of her intimacy, feeling her honey dripping down my thigh.

“You’re so delicious, love… I’ll never get tired of feeling you…”

She devours my lips, and her voice comes out as a plea.

“Love, please…”

“You want more, Jane?”

She nods, and I realize she’s delirious just like me.

“Then ride me, go…”

I let her move, and soon, I start to meet her bounce, going crazy every time I feel her squeezing me while I’m all inside her.

“Love… awnnn like this! Don’t stop!”

I keep giving her everything I have, feeling that she’s completely surrendered to me like no other woman ever has been.

“Come for me, love…”

I enter her one more time, feeling her squirm, and I keep thrusting while she climaxes, soon feeling that I’m reaching my limit. As she climaxes, I feel her body relaxing, and I try to control myself to last a little longer.

“Cum inside me, love… Pour it all inside me…”

Hearing her begging drives me crazy, and before I know it, I’m moaning loudly as I pour myself inside her, feeling my whole body relax. This girl had a power over me that I couldn’t explain, and as I look at her, I see her smile so sweetly, and I melt, pulling her into a kiss. She kisses me for a while before disconnecting our bodies, and my body seems to complain about her absence. She lies next to me, and we spend a few minutes catching our breath, I take her hands in mine, and I can already imagine a ring on her finger, I can’t wait to make her my wife, and my desire is to ask her to be mine right here. But she deserved more, she deserved something special, a fairy tale, and I’m going to give it to her. She looks at me and smiles at me curiously.

“What are you thinking about?”

I pull her to lie on my chest and kiss her lips again, tasting her so sweet. When I pull away, I see she can’t stop smiling, and I smile too.

“I was thinking about how much I love you.”

“Really? How much?”

“It would be impossible to measure. It’s infinite, overflowing. It’s bigger than the universe.”

I see her eyes sparkle, and she kisses me again.

“So it’s like how much I love you.”

“That’s great! So we’ll be together forever!”

“Forever!”